Sit in the Silence




it is the end of the night at the start of the week with a list so long it is still incomplete

seasons in flux, early plans in the works

years in advance, cluttered thoughts in clustered bursts. 



turn the engine to off though the music plays on
trapped in time, lost in mind 
stay still for one more song






    lovely lights beckon, you are home, please come in. 

                                                                             

I do know what is waiting, just not where to begin 

then the song is over and the silence starts and the weight of the life descends on my heart

how long shall i wait? how long to delay?              minutes more is all until another day 


endless peace in the silence, serenity in the dark; no decisions to make while I leave myself in Park.

 







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