Abandon Responsibility

 "Lay it down", just tell me, the load so heavy and constant. 

"Set it aside", say it simply, "take the rest." 

Permission granted and hand extended, a sigh so deep and unexpected, 

I only want a moment, not help, to feel my best. 


Don't do it for me, I am capable. 

Don't shoulder my work, I want the burden. 

Don't deprive my life of purpose and all my drive. 


Don't diminish my effort, I enjoy the struggle. 

Don't mistake my fatigue for overwhelm. 

Working the list helps me to survive. 


Nothing to need, I have it all, energy and self reliance. 

A question of want, frustration builds and raises ire. 

Decisions stacking, days on wash and repeat, 

Maybe someone to hold me and care is my desire. 

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